Insomnia

It has always been difficult for me to fall asleep at night or nap during the day, even when I am extremely tired from missing sleep the previous night. So it is frustrating for me that everyone around me falls asleep effortlessly (my dog, my cat, my wife).

Here I am, one month into fatherhood and with all the exhaustion that comes with it, especially because of the last two nights that have been nearly sleepless for me. Ada is finally asleep, the room is at a very comfortable temperature for this time of year, and I am so tired that the shadows on the wall are moving. No, really, everything looks like it is expanding in place. It is one of the most realistic tricks my eyes have ever played on me, and the only reason I know it's not real is because the shadows have not consumed the entire room.

:)

James

Today crept up on me, and I didn't even realize the significance of the day until it was half over.

It has been one year since my friend died, and I still regularly dream that he is still alive, usually that he played a trick on everyone or that it was a mistake and he was OK the whole time. I don't really understand why, but that is the content of every dream that he is in.